What to Do When Dread Comes Up on the Way to Your Dream
Hi! My name is Jen Mele of Jennifer Mele.com, Abstract Intuitive artist, inspired teacher & e-course creator.
I teach the philosophies & mindbody Techniques I have used to create a compassionate inner relationship with my wisest Self as well as transform my life from relationships, to business to my body & mind.
This is how I create & sustain an inspired life. by continuously connecting to this inner wisdom which naturally unleashes the unique gifts that make me come alive. And I know the same is true for you. You have your own wise warrior within An inspired life is full of joy, peace, self expression & abundance. It is created by tapping into the unique guidance that can only come from inside of YOU.
Have you ever experienced dread about an appointment, an event, a series of situations that are in your future? The video of this week addresses this topic.
Dread is a feeling that has come up for me over and over again for many years. Not wanting to show up (but doing so anyways) has been a theme in my life.
Dread is a funny thing. It is very much connected to anxiety.
I didn’t recognize how related to anxiety it was until I started unblending this part of my self and understanding that the dread was actual fear and hopelessness compounded.
A fear of not moving forward and staying stuck, a fear of having to do things and be something for people (ie expecting the burden of caretaking and parenting someone) a fear of my current circumstances as evidence for what was my reality and so forth.
As I began to understand that these beliefs and fears were not about my present day Life, but about the experiences and perspectives I learned as a little girl feeling stuck in childhood circumstances I couldn’t change, I was able to take in more of what I actually liked in my life and also pay attention to my dreams more.
We don’t have access to our dreams fully until we clear out what fears we have carried in from our past might be blocking them.
This video discusses two tips to help you come into the moment and release dread, often helpful after validating the dread in the first place as a part developed from your past.
This doesn’t mean you had to have experiences like I did or a dysfunctional upbringing. Stuck emotions can develop from all sorts of experiences at school, developmentally, in college, in jobs or from well meaning parents.
What’s most important is the EXPERIENCE of that part of yourself that developed a belief in dread.
Once that part feels understood, you can practice the tips in the video to gently acknowledge that yes, there is hope for the future, create an action step to provide proof for yourself and also bring your attention into the moment.
Dread, worry and fear can’t exist if we are truly in the moment!
I hope you enjoy this video!
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Let me know what you think in the comments!
Is there any particular area you are experiencing dread in right now?
Do you have a Dream you can’t wait to get to but you feel that “life” is in the way?
What can you do today to take one small step toward your dream?
I'm here for you!
Xo, Jen
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The Way out of Numbness into Feeling Alive!
I've been thinking a lot about how to bring more peace, joy and contentment into my life. Learning how to experience more fulfillment and connection to others too.
These are helpful thoughts to have right?
And I keep finding that connecting to myself FIRST is key. Also, finding ways to express myself, because this confidence in self expression IS what makes me feel alive.
This is not just creative expression, though that is super important for me! It is expressing my thoughts, feelings, desires...the good, the bad, the ugly.
For trying to hold onto the good without walking through the pain leads us into Spiritual bypass land, another detour into numbness that can often feel ungrounded, flighty, and fleeting .
For many, many years of my life I felt numb, disconnected and empty inside. Of course you wouldn't know it on the outside. I appeared to be high functioning, always with a smile on and successful.
Yet something felt terribly wrong. Not just something, many things actually. And I was literally dying inside. Like a flower wilted from lack of water and sunlight.
My joy was extinguished and what would appear like happiness would actually be excitement. This would send me on a roller coaster, crashing into disappointment, hopelessness, fear and shame when I would come down from that adrenaline.
Maybe you can relate to some or even all of this?
I didn't know what was "wrong" with me. I kept trying to figure it out. I kept trying to fix it on the outside.
Little did I know I was being led to discovering what was ailing me, but it felt like it took forever!
I begun to find out there was actually nothing wrong with me. Everything happening inside of me and the lack of feeling was just because I had never expressed my feelings before. I had kept them stuffed down for years.
And because of this my light had been snuffed out.
Or atleast it appeared to be.
I believe and have experienced that our light is never truly gone. It is just covered by layers (or parts) that served to protect us through unhealed loss and intense emotions.
What was I experiencing? It couldn't have come out of nowhere. And it didn't. But that's a story (many stories) for another time.
However, what I now know is twhat I was experiencing and what I still experience is Complicated PTSD.
I will continue to share more about this as time goes on. Because I am finding that I must honor my Self, my story and my healing journey in all areas of my life.
In addition, my main takeaway for today is that NO MATTER where you are at, what you are FEELING, and what you have been through, YOUR LIGHT is inside you right now.
And with willingness, patience, and a small sliver of an opening to ask for help, you will find that light will keep shining brighter.
It's not going to be easy despite the fact that the steps are simple.
Yet is is fully possible, 100% possible...to come alive.
To reignite yourself.
To unleash the fire and passion that makes you UNIQUE and who you are.
If I can experience it, there is no doubt in my mind, that it is possible for you too.
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Let Go of Worries Using a Homemade Prayer Jar
I wanted to share with you one of the ways that I have been changing my habitual tendency to choose fear and instead reprogram my thoughts towards love.
Recently, I started keeping a prayer jar on my altar.
Every time that I have feelings of peace and love for another I write their name on a small slip of paper and place it in the jar.
Any time I feel worried about another person, I write their name on a piece of paper and I place it in the jar,
If I have anger or irritation, or an expectation of someone, judgments…if I feel a wanting or neediness from someone, I place the name of that person on a slip of paper and I place it in the jar.
Each time I write down the name, I bless this person. I thank this person. I send them love. I send them light.
Or I may imagine them being surrounded by light.
Sometimes I put the same person’s name in there multiple times in a day. Sometimes I will put my own name in the jar.
Then in my meditation, I bless the entire jar, seeing it with light. I say a prayer for everyone I have placed in there. I hold the jar in my hands sometimes and really infuse it with love and light.
And can I tell you, it feels really good!
This is one practice that really helps me experientially feel the inner truth of giving and receiving being one and the same.
It feels wonderful to shift any feelings of fear that I have and turn them into love in this way. Quite honestly, completely natural, and it’s so simple.
Most of the time…
Sometimes I feel such a strong pull of fear and am being hijacked by feelings of separation. In those moments it feels more natural to choose fear. I feel myself resisting sending out light and love.
Why would we resist doing something like this?
Old tapes. Learned ideas about the world that feel like they are serving a purpose but they are actually just limiting now. They feel real. And can sometimes feel like an insurmountable hurdle to get over. We have so many fears that we have accepted as true, that we don’t even realize how deeply we’ve bought in at times. And when we actually realize we are on this groove of fear and we attempt to switch up our thinking, the fear will lash out stronger at first which can make it feel even more difficult to switch off of it because its message gets so loud.
In behavioral psychology this is called a behavioral burst. When we try to switch up a behavior that is ingrained, i.e. in this case a thought pattern, the behavior and all of it’s emotions will peak, sending out a signal more intensely because it assumes that a louder signal will get the results that it “wants”.
Think of a dog who normally comes to the table for food and you give it some periodically, and then one day you stop. What will it do initially? Bark louder, try harder!
What we have to do is realize what it is that we TRULY WANT. In the moment it may feel that we WANT what pain and misery are telling us, but if we really look into the feeling we see that pain and misery are actually reminders that we are in need of what we REALLY WANT.
It’s kind of mind blowing when you really look at anxiety, anger, fear.
For instance, when it comes to this exercise and I am feeling fearful, anxious, or angry about someone or for someone, and I look closely at this emotion, I realize I am actually experiencing LACK of love.
I am actually focusing on the lack of love that I have for someone in this moment, am believing at some level that they need to give me the love that I want, and I am BLAMING them for not giving it to me.
How can this be helpful to anyone?
My ego would like to convince me that expressing these forms of LACK will benefit someone. I have trained myself continuously for a very long time to “care” this way. To “protect” this way.
Yet this “way” causes me pain. It keeps me miserable. It leads to behaviors that can cause pain to others. And I feel separate from others.
When I am anxious about someone..I am worried about their well being.
When I am anxious about myself..I am worried about my own well being, my peace, and my love being taken away. Or maybe I am worried that I won’t get any peace and love in the first place.
When I am angry, I am feeling like someone or something has done something to take away my peace and love. I judge myself as missing something and I judge and attack the other person for “doing” this to me. How does remaining in anger do anything to help this situation? How does attacking another person and myself further give me what I want?
Even if someone does something that really justifies this anger, how does my sending anger their way help them or me?
So I’m doing something different. When I am feeling LACK of love..instead I SEND love. I recognize that I cannot GET love from the outside. That there is NOTHING anyone can do on the outside to GIVE me that love anyways.
I recognize that anyone else who is pain, anyone else who is experiencing anger, fear, anxiety, is operating from a LACK of love in that moment too.
I recognize that when we are all experiencing LACK of love it just means that we need MORE LOVE.
I recognize that the LACK I am feeling is actually SPACE for LOVE to seep in from
I then ALLOW it to come in.
I visualize the LOVE filling my body, like a beautiful light filled rain shower.
I feel it filling up my body, every cell and expanding outward.
I experience my heart expanding and my body softening.
There.
I am now filled with LOVE and the beautiful thing is once I AM filled there is PLENTY to SHARE.
I am FREE NOW to GIVE this LOVE.
And the other funny thing that happens next is, I start to RECEIVE MORE LOVE to myself just by GIVING.
Try it out and let me know how it goes for you;
Here are some of the new "rules" I live by:
The freedom to get things dirty.
The willingness to listen to what my body is telling me.
The acknowledgement that my true self knows best.
The radical idea that the answers I need are within me.
The magical perspective that everything happens in the right timing.
The surrendering practice of expressing, trusting and feeling as the gateway to connection and meaning.
The life-changing phenomenon that whatever is in me can be expressed creatively in front of me.
And so many more . . .
What To Do When You're Feeling Stuck In the Same Patterns
This rich and metaphorical poem is one of my favorites over the years. Take a peek and let me know what you think!
Autobiography in 5 Chapters, A Poem by Portia Nelson
Chapter One.
I walk down the street. There’s a deep hole in the sidewalk. I fall in. I am lost. I am helpless. It isn’t my fault. It still takes forever to find a way out.
Chapter Two.
I walk down the same street. There’s a deep hole in the sidewalk. I pretend I don’t see it. I fall in again. I can’t believe I’m in the same place! But it isn’t my fault and it still takes a long time to get out.
Chapter Three.
I walk down the same street. There’s a deep hole in the sidewalk. I see it there. I still fall in. It’s a habit!My eyes are open. I know where I am. It is my fault. I get out immediately.
Chapter Four.
I walk down the same street. There’s a deep hole in the sidewalk. I walk around it.
Chapter Five.
I walk down a different street.
There was an interesting commentary on Elephant Journal by Barbara Becker where she states that her Meditation Teacher explains to her that there is a Chapter 6.
I find this to be really interesting because it has been almost 8 years since I originally read this poem.
After my own personal journey and witnessing it among clients, this sixth chapter, according to Becker and her teacher, is that once we head down the new road, there is another hole, and we fall in again.
I have to admit at first glance reading this I didn't really want to hear it. I mean, who wants to keep falling into holes? It's exhausting right?
I want to get to the road where there are no holes. Where the streets are paved with gold like my Uncle would say.
And yet, as I continue on my own path I keep seeing that yes, there are always some more holes.
It doesn't mean I don't get better at climbing out .And I find that there happens to be a lot more time spent on certain roads now without the holes.
But inevitably, there will be ups and downs. It's not about having those downs that means we have done something wrong.
It's how can we be more compassionate to ourselves, more curious and get more information about what's happened and how we can apply it (gently) to what comes next.
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The New Rules I Live By...I'm Breaking the Old Ones!
Paint can bring me into the micromoments like no other. For over 15 years I've studied intuition and practiced mindfulness. My first introduction to mindfulness was in undergrad at Boston University when I took a Buddhism course. My first introduction to intuitive being was at another course there called Stalking the Wild Mind. For many years I applied and learned and experienced these practices in relation to my own healing journey and as my role as therapist. It wasn't until my paint awakening happened though that I realized that my true vessel for all of these teachings is in art making and painting. What a surprise and what a gift!!!
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Here are some of the new "rules" I live by:
The freedom to get things dirty.
The willingness to listen to what my body is telling me.
The acknowledgement that my true self knows best.
The radical idea that the answers I need are within me.
The magical perspective that everything happens in the right timing.
The surrendering practice of expressing, trusting and feeling as the gateway to connection and meaning.
The life-changing phenomenon that whatever is in me can be expressed creatively in front of me.
And so many more . . .
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Feeling Too Attached to an Outcome? What You're Waiting for May Not Be What You Think
My inner child likes to play with all different mediums, like paint pens and natures paint brush.
Inspiration is everywhere. Following what catches my interest in the moment is a great way to play.
I also have to let go of being attached to the inspiration. Sometimes I start something and lose interest. Other times it just flows out of me. Not forcing things is a good rule of thumb for me: in art, in life, in heart.
It's a practice. It's a practice that shows up in the art.
For it is a reflection of my life, my psyche, the different parts of me.
There have been many, many, times I have held on so tightly and then judged myself for doing so.
It wasn't until I had compassion for why I would've learned to hold on that tightly in the first place, that some of that tension started to ease up.
Compassion was the answer. It's always the answer.
Of course!
That holding on tightly to fear actually is a survival instinct. It doesn't mean that I am bad or wrong.
It's a paradox.
Yet, one that makes sense. Not one of those paradoxes that are really polarized black and white stances in disguise.
No, this paradox is filled with gentleness and softening.
It is about staying curious. About watching. About gaining new information more and more each day.
And it's the same with the painting process. Each painting is a little journey into itself.
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