Forcing myself to be where I'm not
Afraid I'm not going to get there
Leaves me feeling full of shame.
The critic communicates to myself
not only that where I am at now is wrong,
but that who I am is wrong
And that I am not safe.
Because now is my true nature
and trusting the process
is the vehicle from which a fulfilled life flows.
Though at one time life was running and sticky and not flowing .
I had to force myself to exist where I could not be.
So the critic learned then that now was suffering.
Thank you critic.
I needed a way out.
I needed protection.
We are okay now.